Black Coffee ...

Agony and pain have struck me badly
still i am willing to stand, although a bit oddly

The world is laughin at my misery ,
yet i have found solace, both refreshin and crispy ,

The mind is dull with random spurts of activity,
the smoke is rising in the air and the wind is drifty,

My friends say not to worry and stay positive,
but i stay misty eyed, optimistic refraining from the negative,

rowing the boat of life alone ,
the way lost and the body feeling frail and reduced to bones ,

knowledge has become a distant dream ,
The bitter taste of a "black coffee" with no cream ....

Insanity ??

Gasping for breath .. running with the pace of life .. lone existence with no one to share .. fatigue crushing from head to toe .. with no moment to pause ..fighting with the mounting expectations .. fighting with the desire to be set free.. fighting with the norms set by society .. fighting with wishes .. panting, puffing, running.. nothing seems to stop .. a morbid existence with no joy ..

suddenly you appear..somehow peace is achieved .. and the wings have spread .. the morose has turned to bonhomie .. the soul is overjoyed .. the distant flight to happiness has begun to take shape .. fear and defeat are nowhere in sight .. you are the melody like lilting refrain .. swirling music within my brain .. you are the innocent laughter of a child .. you are the rain to my parched earth .. you are the treasure of my life , so safely stored .. it is because of you that i have moments that i adore .. it is you because of whom i can again wish .. it is you because of whom i can again strive .. it is because of you the sands feels so warm and soft .. the summer of life never seem to be lost .. you are the shelter where my soul rests .. these are your times , the times we know ...

it is all because of you .. my love .. my "Insanity" !!!!

I meet "ME" ..!!

Upon the stairs I crawl at night
full of passion , none of fright,
For moon I slightly take a gaze,
Within me there's is a burning blaze,
A shadow follows me to bed
where all my wonders are fed ,
Tonight , I could not abstain ,
Tonight, I meet myself again .. !!

Emptiness ... !!

Evolving from the flames of change
I am still settling myself down .. was like the pixie dust off the ground
Living my life clueless
Things happening so fast..me just sitting there, helpless

Love , Hate and a plethora of emotions have left my soul
I am stoned with no clues about my goals
Creeping in my heart Slowly and slowly
I fear that it will conquer and kill me ..

Please save me from this EMPTINESS..!!

Those psychedelic nights ...

the smoke rising in the air of the dark night making different shapes against the blue light of the speaker. imagination, tangible as the shape of the smoke, veers aimlessly. sitting in a unkempt room with its door facing the starry night, the mind plays its own tricks. well it does not captivate the senses as they are occupied in observing the proceedings of the next dose of "nirvana" getting ready. outside the wind is chilly and sharp , contrasting to the warmth inside the room . the eyes are heavy trying to fix their gaze at the monitor to figure out the next song in the playlist..the view of the night and the fog enveloping the college merged the unreal with reality. waves of peace and tranquility were in the air .in the room music flowed amongst laughter. faces of friends smiling , chatting , "rolling one after the other " . it is kind of bizzare but the dim light accentuates the emotions reflected on their faces. high and full of life. pink floyd filled the slow senses with abstract thoughts. the body feeling light almost gravity less. motion defy every rule that newton once disocvered ..... (to be continued)

thus ...FROZEN..

the mind seems adrift, unstable .. with spaces which cannot be recognized ..

it feels nausea is gripping me with its lashing tail of death overcoming my existence ..

Destiny's fangs are clutching my soul extinguishing the fire for survival ..

lost in the realms of time
fluttering moments whisked past
brushing my soul aside
confused, battered and tired
i look aghast.....
pieces of life lay astray
silence is what remains
save me
My Heart has FROZEN!!

LOVE .. Eternal and Blissful ..

Eyes bent down
Spirit flies high

Redness come to my lips
Irregular words just slip..

the sky looks bright
with moonless nights never in sight

Fresh flowers suddenly spread their wings
And the chirping of birds seems like a hymn

everybody, everything looks good
life becomes like a walk in the green woods

with the 'grass' giving the tired 'legs' comfort
with the love soothing the soul

silence seems to bless
for once I feel Blessed
when LOVE IS IN THE AIR ....

WHY ....???

In this world where everything is liable to change , we mortal humans , bloody imposter's are so imperfect that we even cannot enact a change and are falling much behind..

we try to be friends , we fail ..
we try to love, we fail..
we try to succeed , we fail..
we try to succumb, we fail..

and there we remain always behind
just like a Jack of All Trades..

success is merely a term to signify spurts of bright moments in an otherwise gray life..

Happiness is just too perfect to attain ..
empty handed we strain ..
Nerves slow down ..
Pressure builds up..
Aspirations go high..
Expectations keep on mounting..
Our fragile soul just gets Crushed .. WHY???

Uncertainity..

Always pondering i ask myself

why am I so uncertain ?
is Life so tricky?
that i am in jeopardy

decisions are pending
but i am still wondering

soon the time is going to evaporate
there will be no place vacant

God please help me in these tough times
give me strength , make some wind chime

my soul is restless , i need some sleep
let no doorbells and phone beep

please excuse me from this bursting life
give me back my conviction .. so that i can once again STRIVE..